Bits and pieces

• Never fear people... Finally there is a legitimate explanation as to why I am such a tragic fashion whore.
• I have lost my very, very favourite beautiful ring from my third finger on my left hand (which, incidentally it literally never leaves unless I've taken it off to play with it). If you find it, please return it to me. I am lost without it. My life is dull and meaningless.*
• I was recently told the following by a delightful and dear friend: "You must be going through menopause, your moods have been all over the place the last few weeks." Whilst this is no doubt true (the moods part, not the menopause part), I do resent the implication that I am a good thirty years older than I actually am.** I mean, I know I'm getting wrinkles, but seriously...
• My favourite news website posed a question of me this morning: "Do male-female friendships always end in sex, broken engagements and bad Mariah Carey tunes being pumped up way too loud? Or can you conduct a simple cross-sex friendship without any sort of feelings getting in the way?" Simple answer, no they don't. I have lots of guy friends. Doesn't mean I haven't fallen for at least a couple of them, but we all know I'm not the most emotionally stable chicken... And according to my mum, "friendship is the best basis for a long-term relationship." Still, she can't explain why I have so many friends and so few boyfriends...
• OH MY GOD if you read lots of blogs and get really shat of having to tediously navigate your way through your favourites every time you want to check them, check out www.google.com/reader. Oh my god this thing is brilliant. You can load up all the blogs you check regularly, and whamo! Kapow! You can read them all in one spot. Thanks Lenny K.
• I have decided that living here in Melbourne, I might well have to become a cyber diver. This is not by choice, merely thanks to the WEATHER DAMMIT. Gale force winds? for the SECOND weekend in a row? Hmph. Thanks a whole lot. The universe is conspiring against me ever finishing my Deep Diver course. That said, I am very much enjoying my progression into technical diving IN MY FREAKING MIND. Hmph again.
• The internet is a brilliant research tool. I'm not talking about university work or anything boring like that - I've been reading about ship wrecks. Lots and lots of ship wrecks.
• I need to do some washing and tidy my room. I know my mum will be very pleased when this happens. It is, however, unlikely to happen tonight, as I will be very busy being the life of a party involving two other people who, it seems, will find umpteen reasons to gang-tease me. I am not sure I like this, but I like that my friends like each other. It makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside (and smiley on the outside). It also seems it's unlikely to happen tomorrow, as I will most likely be ridiculously hungover and still in bed at midday, or perhaps not hungover, but enjoying still being in my pyjamas, reading lovely books and watching video hits at midday. Either way, there is no room in that schedule for washing or cleaning.

*OK, that might be a slight exaggeration... but I do love it.

**Not that there's anything wrong with being thirty years older than me...

Omahahahas

Well, I know you're all dying to know, aren't you? DESPERATELY wondering what happened?

(we're talking about my romantic dinner as predicted in my horoscope yesterday people, keep up please).

Well my romantic dinner was lovely. It started off with some wine, and then some more wine (I was officially a Cadbury last night... a glass and a half of full cream dairy milk* and I was off my face).

Oh who am I kidding? It wasn't romantic, but then, that was never the intention. Originally the intention was to go for a walk/run - and it's the intention that counts! Thank GOD for the rain (in more ways than one, I'm quite sick of hearing my mum moan about how her garden is dying).

I am from now on going to be very wary of taking Mcslurry and Andy (as I believe he likes to be called!) anywhere together - there seemed to be a distinct tendency to gang up on me... Perhaps this is just because I'm generally an easy target... Damn, must work on that.

*substitute full cream dairy milk with red wine

Gooooooogle.

Oh oh oh I have to laugh. I have just had a look (for the first time in a very long time), how each of you comes to visit my blog. By this I mean, do you type it in directly, do you click on a link on someone else's blog, do you Google search? Generally, I'm not so interested, mainly because as much as I like that people read this blog, I don't really care either way whether they do or don't.

But when it comes to google searching, here are some of the most popular (and disturbingly recurring) search terms:

"ode to myself"
"singapore tammy self strip"
"give job philippina girl"
"raw marlin"

but by far the most popular... "rob ormoc."
Rob, my friend, you must be a popular man in that funny little country of yours!

Staroscopes

Generally, I don't buy into horoscopes. I think they're a load of twaddle mixed with a healthy dose of crap. That is, unless they happen to suit what i'm thinking/feeling/doing at the time, at which point I think they are a brilliant guide for how I should plan my day/week/life.

Behold, my destiny for this day, the 28th of March:

Leo: The Moon enters your sign and illuminates your happy nature and energises you too. Your need to love and be loved drives you today making you a force to be reckoned with. So make sure you do lots of fun things too in the midst of your busy day and make some plans to get out and about tonight or have a romantic dinner with your lover.

Got that Mofos? Out of my way - I'm a force to be reckoned with.

Oh, and does anybody want to go out tonight?

Reactor

well good news everybody... today is a happee day.

It's funny... i have just had a conversation with a friend about how different people deal with the stress of deadlines (he stresses consistently for a long time beforehand, i leave it all until the last minute and then woe betide anybody who gets in my way). I am constantly fascinated by the different ways people react to the same situations... some people, it seems to me, violently over-react to some things, but I'm sure that I do it too. The reason I'm sure I do it too is because this person happens to be my mother, and I know we (and my sisters particularly) are more alike than any of us would care to admit.

However, do you think that being aware of something enables you to have more control of it? Are we Bond girls less inclined to over-react because we know what it feels like to be constantly dealing with the over-reactor? Or do we just over-react to different things? Or in different ways? I am loathe to think that I would crack the shits at everybody and everything around me over something relatively minor, and yet as I sit and think about it, I know i react very emotionally to some things that I really don't need to... What can I say? I'm an emotional person - my initial reaction to everything is based on my heart feels about it, and not what my head tells me is logical. Even at work, I tend to react emotionally... With experience, I'm getting better at using my head and looking at things critically, but my gut reaction is emotion not reason.

ARGH sometimes I feel like I'm such a mess.

Ok. this post had absolutely no structure and is really just random thoughts that I happen to have typed. Sincere apologies if you've made it this far.

All of that aside, I am pleased to know that i have a purple brain.

Your Brain is Purple

Of all the brain types, yours is the most idealistic. You tend to think wild, amazing thoughts. Your dreams and fantasies are intense. Your thoughts are creative, inventive, and without boundaries. You tend to spend a lot of time thinking of fictional people and places - or a very different life for yourself.

What Color Is Your Brain?

Grammar Nazi

Message to anybody who has ever referred to me as the Grammar Nazi:

READ THIS BLOG : http://quotation-marks.blogspot.com/

I LOVE it. Seriously. I'm IN love with a blog. It's brilliant.

Message to anybody who has never referred to me as the Grammar Nazi:

Get with the program people. Read the blog.

Sleeeeeeeeep

I am not someone who deals well with stress - emotional stress that is. Give me a stressful work situation and I am someone who makes things happen or fixes them quick-smart. Give me someone else's emotional stress and I am brilliant at listening to them and then talking them back to sanity. I am, however, not so good with my own emotions.

The first sign that makes me realise how much something is affecting me is my sleep... or lack thereof. The last few weeks I"ve been having some quite bizarre dreams - bizarre content, but mainly just bizarre in that I can remember them. I never, ever remember dreams. I've also been waking up alot in the middle of the night. Last night I woke up at 2.30 and actually couldn't go back to sleep. I watched tv, I read my book, I lay in bed, i swapped my pillows over. for TWO HOURS. This, for me, is highly unusual. I can sleep anywhere at any time and through absolutely anything.

There is just one thing that brings me un-stuck emotionally... and that is uncertainty. I can deal with things either way, I just can't deal with not knowing, with being in limbo, or with being unsure of exactly what is going to happen.

Am I control freak? Why yes, I do believe I am.
Do I obsess over things I don't know the answers to? Absolutely.
Does this stressing and constant going over of things help the situation? Of course not.

I just want to know goddammit. And i want a good night's sleep. Doesn't look like it's going to be tonight.

Coquettish? ME???

God I love these things....

Your Seduction Style: The Coquette

You are a pro at playing the age old game of hard to get. Your flirting style runs hot and cold, giving just enough to keep them chasing you. Independent and self-sufficient, you don't need any one person to make you compelte. And that independence is exactly what makes people pursue you.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

Funny though, you know what's slightly scary... it's kinda true. DAMMIT.

Soulmate

I would just like to re-assure all of you who were worried about me that I am ok. My life is now complete that I discovered this little gem. It has enabled me to figure out the rest of my life.

I suggest you all try it.

TLOWKHAATM

Good morning. It's not hello pot plants and flowers, it's not happy sunshine and purple people, but it's a good morning.

Well people... good news is I seem to be somewhat over the bluuuuuhuuuuuhuuuuues. Somewhat. Possibly due to getting some dives in on the weekend, and aiming for four more this coming weekend... Also, I think I've settled back into work. I was finding teaching particularly unbearable for the first couple of weeks... which is odd considering how much I was enjoying it before I left! Lots of things change with just a few minutes of holiday...

I think this change of mood is also due to a FABULOUS amount of music I'm totally in love with at the moment... So without further ado or boring you with my moods, here's Tam's List of What's Keeping Her Alive At The Moment*

Silverchair - Straight Lines
I was a fan of Silverchair when i was just a wee little kiddy bopping around in... well.. shorts and tshirts, but lets not get into details. Suffice to say I'm glad they're back, and this song makes me twelve kinds of happy when I hear it seventeen times a day on the radio.

Mika - Grace Kelly
The first time I heard this song I was convinced it was Queen (logistical impossibilities aside), and then I thought it might be Robbie Williams... and then I realised I was totally in love with it and had a big goofy grin on my face.

John Mayer - Waiting on the World to Change
One day this generation's going to control the population - a thought that's both scary and exciting (kind of like me).

Scissor Sisters - I Don't Feel Like Dancing
This song makes me feel like dancing around the room and being boppy. What can I say? I like to do the opposite of what I'm being told to do... tell me not to want to dance and DAMMIT I'll want to...

Hinder - Lips of an Angel
Just like (obviously) everybody else, I'm intrigued by what motivates people to cheat on their partner, and that someone would write a song that makes so much sense... well, it just makes me think.

Ok. I've just realised that I have pretty much named the playlist of Nova... I've been somewhat limited (and therefore teeny-bopper-poppy) in my listening lately... SO SUE ME!**

*that's TLOWKHAATM for those of you who are interested...
** Or don't... i'm not particular flush at the moment, what having just come back from holiday and with all this EXPENSIVE new gear to buy...

Bluuuuuuues

I got the bluuuuuues.

I got the bluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuues.

My apologies, but please... indulge my country music-ness for a moment.

bluuuuuhuuuuuhuuuuuuhuuuuuhuuuuuuuuues.

I actually don't have the blues, not seriously anyway. I have the post-holiday blues. Don't get me wrong, there are many fabulous things happening in my life at the moment, I'm just feeling quite blah about the not-so-fabulous things. This blah-ness is out-weighing the fabulous things.

I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW i've just been away on a brilliant holiday, I have a new hobby that i'm ridiculously excited about... What do I have to complain about? Not much really. But I think that's possibly part of the problem. I would rather be ANYWHERE but work. Every now and then I go through stages like this, where my job gets to be so same same same same same same that I feel like slitting my wrists with a very blunt instrument and bleeding all over the floor just for some entertainment. This is one of those stages.

But never fear valiant readers - I've been running and yoga-ing and having a jolly time, and generally everything outside of work is quite literally top-notch, so i'm sure this insipid worky boredom will soon sort itself out.

Until then, there's always google and youtube...

Romance

Good morning shiny happy people.

You're all looking fabulous this morning.

I am too? Why thankyou. Thankyou very much. I am, aren't I? I'm also feeling a little human again which, after flying through the night Sunday and pretty much going straight to work on Monday, I really wasn't.

Well, the last three weeks of my life have been busy, exhausting, exciting and full of adventure and romance.

WHAT?????!!?!?!?!?! ROMANCE I hear you exclaim?

Tammy doesn't have romance in her life.

Ever.

Sadly, this is still true. I'm talking about the new love of my life... diving. Yes, that's right folks, I have a new obsession. First it was skiing, which of course, I still love. But skiing has been somewhat superceded by something MUCH cooler, WAAAAAY more diverse and alot more variable and exciting (also alot less dependent on the weather... which, the way things have been going recently, can only be a good thing!).

From now on I am going to spend my whole life either sitting on Blue Beach on a boat or in the water far below said boat. NB I'll make sure boat has a computer and a coffee machine, so don't stress, blog will still happen. With this in mind, how does this sound to everyone else? I, for one, think it's a fabulous idea.

ABSOLUTELY FABULOUS!

Ooh just to update you on the last few days of my ollieday, Singapore has some great shopping (amazingly they even have shoes for giant feet), brilliant karaoke, and awesome teppanyaki, but it is just too damn hot.